A word to the wise.

So a lot of things have happened and soon I will be able to write even three times a day.

First big thing that is happening is that I'm finally finishing high school so yay for me!
Second thing is that graduation is just around the corner and I'm looking desperately for a job. As a matter of fact..my birthday lands on the last day of school so I'll search for a job until then. I need to get a job to buy clothes and other things:3 It'll be nice to have a job, besides I want to earn my own money you know? AND I have to pay for college since I'm poor and I don't have rich parents who  cover my education.
So, it sucks to be part of the low-middle-high-low-middle low class:3

Second thing is that I got in a fight with a friend. So she told me I had an attitude problem and said I didn't see how people viewed. She ignored me for two days and one weekend until I talked to her. The first time I said sorry another friend said it didn't sound sincere. I apologized the next day and got ignored. Now I'm still getting ignored and I'm the one with an attitude problem?
Oh well, reality being I'm not made to beg and I won't. I can't really explain my way of thinking, but yes I messed up and I apologized for it. But after getting ignored after saying sorry and everything being "alright" I can only be pissed. I value friendship. But if you really don't fully accept my apology then I can't do nothing much about it. I'm tired of the drama, so I guess this is it.

I really wanted to make the best of it since it's the last year and all... but if someone else doesn't care why should I? I won't try to make them understand the value of my friendship. I really tried to make it up, but if they're still not comfortable with me then I guess. Maybe it's best like this, that way that person doesn't have to be putting up with me in a way.

As foolish as it sounds right now I'm crying because its almost as if that person doesn't care..how can you ignore someone who hurts and who did their best to make it up to you? How can you still ignore that person? Are they THAT worthless?

I guess I am.